Friday, August 29, 2008
honestly...i strt to hate prefect board...i rly hate tis...jz too dark...not suit my style...i enjoy peaceful life...not life lk tis...frankly speaking...i dun1 to go for d interview...wad to do?3 of them indirectly rejected...evn d 1 tht rly great 1...wad to do?Mdm xxxx special request tht xxx go for tht post's interview...wad to do?jz lt them be n wait fer SMLY doom's day?wad to do?thy all lk sum sorta put all their hope on me...wad to do?is tis rly a must?wad to do?i promised myself b4 no matter wad...wun lt xxx gt d post...wad to do?bothersome...tiring...killing me as well...all tis pissed me off...driving me crazy...feel lk bang to d wall...lately emo no stable summore...haix... wad to do? passed up d paper edi...wad cn i do?wad sud i do?cn i evn do anythin?yea...thrs sumthin i cn...i've decided...suan le ba~tis world not tht colorful as i tot...ba~ >w<luckily nite time stil cn see light...bah~ciaos~
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7:04 PM
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Tuesday, August 26, 2008
fan arh~fan arh fan arh fan arh fan arh~~huhu~ >w<my 毛病 come bac lerh~ whee~ ^___^cheer fer me~~~yay~^____^sum sort lk...hw describe...erm...tis time...my emotion won...my brain?my heart?dunno die to whr lerh xDDDlately im acting weirdly?ya... dun worry pals...jz sumthin wrong wit me...ya... me... myself... and I...xDDDDi wanted to look fer d probs...but...sum sort lk...i dun1 to look fer d root...tis wad ppl say:escape frm reality~escape frm problems~wheee~~xDDDD funny hor?i told Ashley...逃避只能短暂的解决问题……^_^ im rly contradicting myself...sry Mei Yong...Im a failure...cnt lead to a bright path...my action lately againsting ur motto...Im rly sorry...I sud jz sleep fer a longer time...sry Mei Yong..."i knw...i lose tis time..."byes...
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7:10 PM
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Monday, August 25, 2008
i wonder...
izit i think to far?
o really no1 cn tell wad wil happen in d nez second?
true...
me..myself...oso dunno wad wil happen...
wad wil happen to myself nez second...
d stupid question...
why d heck 'u' cross my mind!?
i hate myself...
sumtime... wait... most of d time...
tis special skill of mine quite bothersome...
make me feel lk kill myself...
not i wan to think so much....
but... tis dimmit brain...
out of control...
lately rly 'fan'... tis fan-ness driving me crazy...
make my emotion nt stable...
haix... vry hard de leh!!!
if too emo...die...
if dun release... die...
release bit by bit? CRAZY MEH!!!
T_T any1 plz phn Bukit Padang Hospital Mesra?
in case... nid it... no nid worry ma...
是我的妄想症又发作了吗？
或许……童话永远不可能发生？
命中注定？
wad i wish for... will never happen?
i rly a pathethic gurl...
hah...
^_^ 1st time failure...
2nd time failure...
3rd time? hah...
dun hv d courage...
i nid time...
time n action...
i think...is my thinking...my thought...
too innocent? haha...
my heart is fragile...
rly fragile...
broken twice...
hardly to reform it...
if break agn...
i'll just give up tis poor heart...
lead a heartless life...
i dun1 to lead a heartless life...
*layers of barriers set-up*
*layers of lock set-up*
*cover myself wit blanket*
*snores*
take good care of my heart any1?
hah...
im rly a pathethic gurl...
pathethic...
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10:36 PM
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Sunday, August 24, 2008
hmm....lots of things happen in tis week...rly alot...mostly are happy stuff...lets talk about it 1 by 1? ^^18/8/08~d day my popo ariv... my aunties n uncles n cuzzy >w<din see them quite long le...d laz time was whn im 13y/o? =O REALLY LONG TIME!!!n oso... d 1st time met my miri d cuzzy =xthy speak english de ( == my worst case scenario)=x i rarely speak english wit my cuzzy de...mostly cantonese o mandarin...T_T n hor... omz 4gt to mention...my da biao ge(same age as me tho) >w<is a genius!! T_T 99% fer Add maths!!!year year no. 1 T_Ti wonder y my family all d gene so pro >w<mwhahahahaha xDDDDDDDDDDDDpsps >w<aftr tht... we went fer lunch... thn dinner...thn packing ready fer d 2nd event!!! mwhahahaha~ ^^19/8/08 ~ 20/8/08hoho!!! xDDD
i've been waiting fer tis day So SO LONG~~~~~CZ~ we goin to kundasang!!! mount kinabalu~ here i come~~vry early in d morning... popo pinch me =_=so painful... directly woke up f3...*look at phn* =o=lll ONI 6++AM!?WTH!!! thn i smsed kor to wish him gd luck xDDDi think he gt shcoked abit gua? xDDDthn packing packing stuff things into d car...*fast forward*WOOTS~ D SCENERY DANG NICE!!! ^_^D COLD BREEZE *shivers* BUT RLY RLY NICE >w<ahh~ i wil nvr 4gt tht ^^went 2 hotspring oso ^^my 2nd time been thr...xDDD a lil sakai whn i reach thr...cz d laz time i've been thr was whn im stil 4 o 5 y/o xDDDDso d image quite blur xDDDDenjoy a vry nice 'bath' thr ^^so relaxing...aftr tht... went bac to Zen Gardenmy mom booked a challet at thr...nite time... guess wad?15ppl eat steamboat 2gthr xDDDnotes: oni 1 pot we using tho xDDDwhn we hving our dinner hor... >w<story telling frm adults bout their childhood...n oso sum funny stuff frm my xiao uncle...he has really good sense of humour xDDD(read in chinese arh)'wo yi jing ma guo zhe ge xue sheng ji bai, no use tell him more'xDDDDD 'bai' in cantonese mean times... he actualy wan 2 say 'ma guo zhe ge xue sheng ji chi'we had quite a lively nite =))d nez morning...woke up arnd 5am...sit outside d challet...waiting fer so long...I FINALLY SAW MOUNT KINABALU!!!!SO CLEAR T_TSO GAN DONG T_Twe snap lots of foto...i enjoy my breakfast outside d challet ^^d 1st time.. so great ^^ d feeling ^^d feelings.. cnt describe wit words...u nid to feel it urself... =)we went to Masilau...anothr amazing plc T_T
so cold...hehe~cz my dad de car nt ngam to ride up to d rly high slanted road...so my dad's fren offer to bring us to Masilau...most of d children sit behind d Hilux...xDDD open air xDDD so nice d feeling ^^did i mention 1 funny thing.. ==during d ride frm Masilau...gt 1 brown color liquid thingy splash on me...guess wad is it? ^_^ ITS BULL SHIT =O== suay eh? ==3 days... keep eating...eat eat eat eat~ eat eat eat eat~ non stop eating spree ==rly.. nvr stop...ytd i weigh myself ==gain 2kg T_Tthy went bac to KL n Miri on 22/8/08early in d morning...anr 5sumthin...i cnt belif i stil slping ==i din gt d chance to say gdbye 2 them T_Tsad arh...22/8/08~MPP!~Prefect Board Farewell Party...was a success ^^quite fun la...better thn laz year de...fer more detail~plz log on to www.ayutomoe.blogspot.comxDD psps i lazy post ^^23/8/08~another big day fer me n oso kor...his exam day... n d day i hv 2 settle all d stuff...^^v received kor's msg...i gather all my courage n oso d courage tht kor boro me...to settle tis... but thn... tis guy...haix... dun hv enuf courage...din rly settle much tho...at least settle abit...24/8/08~^^ evrythin settled ^^vim free now~a new page of life shall begin?dunno xDDDrly happy fer u Ashley.. =)aftr so many things...finally =) evrythings worth it =)mz appreciate tis relationship oh!! ^^"别让你的幸福溜走…… 要好好把握……不然后悔就来不及了……"^^ thts wad u teach me... u oso orh...my 幸福 arh... stil nid wait... =) nid sumtime...dun worry bout me ^^jy wit Mr F bah Mrs F ^^no matter wad happen =)stil gt me support u !!! xDDDDGAMBATE!!!wonder wads d secrets~~ ^^haha ^^tis post might b quite bored...and a lil long...due to my laziness...sud post particular stuff on tht particular day...xDDDi try ba... ^^thts all bah... xDDcya all ^^
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11:56 AM
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Sunday, August 17, 2008
suddenly feel lk writing a new post...but i hav no idea wad to post...ytd sumthin happen...thx Ashley...i finaly hv d courage to face tis problem...evrythin shall completely settle on Friday...indirectly i cn hlp 4 ppl...=) good thing rite?thn i cn strt a whole new page in my life...no fear to look bac previous pages...looking forward?xD cn say so...Friday...will hav a major chg in my life...=) i cn finally put dwn d burden...n face my new life ^^vwill support me de hor?=) aftr Friday evening...a new chapter shall start... =)a whole new world~ xDDDstrting frm 2mr will b quite busy...dun think gt time to study...hope PP2 wun die >w<nid save my add maths n physics 1st >w<2mr...arnd 1pm++grndma n auntie unlce n cousins wil ariv...thn wil busy til nite time...Tues n weds not in...goin 2 mount kinabalu rest hse --- Zen Garden^^ i cn enjoy my fresh air n stressless enviroment!!xDDD finaly ^^Thurs... Prefect board farewell party...gonna snap tonnes of foto xDDD^^v hope nez year 4 of us cn rly sit dwn n enjoy our farewell dinner =)Friday... evrythin shall settle on tht day evening...all d best bah! =)saturday n sunday arh?HOMEWORK DAY LORH STUPID =OOH NO!!!!! T_Tthts all gua?mayb nite time suddenly feel lk writing a post?who knws?we dunno wad wil happen nez second =)so~live our life to fullest ^^cherish evry single ones life ^^Eggy Motto: "No matter what happen... I always believe that im 幸福 & 快乐的"
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5:01 PM
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Wednesday, August 13, 2008
i noticed sumthin 2dy...
d issues i nvr think of...
until 2dy... whn chit chating wit BFFs...
oni i noticed tis...
i keep thinking of tis stuff...
keep analysing...
keep spacing out...
i stil cnt gt myself an answer tht i satisfy wit...
若吾非君知之也，君仍否惜吾乎？
君惜真实或虚幻者也？
迷茫…… 困惑……无释也……
xD tis is d 1st time i write using gu wen ^^
u cnt find these othr plc...
cz these sentences all wrote by me de ^^
by myself xDDDDD
quite short actualy 2dy de post...
Kor..Jiayou in studies!!! xDDD
STUDY TIL VOMIT!!!
TIL DEHYDRATED!!!
xDDDDDDDDDD
All the best ^^
thts all...
tatas~
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9:53 PM
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Tuesday, August 12, 2008
long time din post liao...dunhv d mood to? mayb...evn gt... oso dunno strt frm whr...^_^2dy...thy went bac lerh...tis morning...i say goodbye to them...hug wit them...n say we will meet agn ...2 sis cry lk crazy..tis time... i din cry...during tis few days...i try nt to spend too much time wit them...cz i knw...if i did...i wil cry...if i cry... thy sure wil feel sad oso...dun1 them feel sad...thts y... sry... im nt porposely dun1 spend time wit u all...jz tht... i knw...my big sis wan 2 spend more time wit u guys more than i do...she rly miss u all...i knw same to u all...i dun lk being apart...but wad cn i do?? i can do nothing...but i knw...sumdy we will meet agn... =)hehe =)i knw...im falling agn... xDDDdun worry... =)i wun lt myself gt hurt agn =) i wil listen to u guys de advises ^^i promised myself...thn i wil stick to tht promise...lt time proof evrythin =)tis time i wil listen to both my heart n my brain...n oso my BFFs advises =)" if u wan dream come true, wake up then..."thts wads Joanna told me...take me quite sumtime to undrstnd...>w<>
Mdm Rose lately said quite a lots of meaningful things..
^^v i wil treasure wad u said Mdm Rose ^^v
im quite agree wit wad u said ^^ hehe ^^
Nuts wanted to make sumthin for PMT...
1st time see she so crazy...
GOGO!! xDD i learn 2gthr wit u ^^
learn frm Karine sensei ^^
gambate!!!
hoho~ willing to do anythin for him eh? xDDD
jiayous bah ^^
jz dun gt urself hurt cn lerh...
ltr be like me ke lian lorh~
hope i cn stand til d vry end =)
i hv faith in u... =)
i hope i cn b lk my sis...
if im as lucky as her...
IF if...
well~
KOR DUN B LAZY !!!
STUDY!!! RAWR!!!
FOR YOUR OWN SAKE!!!
STUDY STUDY STUDY TIL U VOMIT!!!
GOGO!!!! RAWR
thts all for 2dy...
i think...
ciaos~ ^^
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10:31 PM
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Thursday, August 7, 2008
lalalalala~
so fast~
so exciting ^^
8/8/08!!!! 2000hrs!!!
BEIJING OLYMPIC!!! >w<>
MY NECK WAIT TIL SOOO LONG JOR~ >w<
hehe ^^ 8/8/08 so many things gonna happen ^^
goin 2 airport 2mr~~
2 fetch them~ lalalala~~ ^^
so long din see them liao~
stil rmbr d vry last time i see them i cried T_T ...
hehe~ nw thy r bac ^^
lalalala~ 2mr gonna skip chinese literature class(d movie >w<) thn charge to airport!!! WOOTS~ >w<>w<>w<
m i an emergency rescue tube??
o a spare tire?? =x
i jz wan to b d ordinary me....
lk hapily...
sky oways bright...
lk d me nw...
plz...
im jz me...
d oridinary....
W.M.Y...
hehe ^^
Eggy phrase~
~~ Sharing is caring ~~ Caring is loving~~ ^^
kor...
dun emo okays?
rmbr whn goin 2 emo...
think of hpy de stuff =)
dun gt emo agn...
xDDDD
emo bad fer health neh! xDDDD
hehe...
i think...
thts all fer 2dy ^^
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10:04 PM
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Sunday, August 3, 2008
lalalala~~
im 16 y/o jor~~~
lalalala~~~~
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet~ 16 ^^
hehe~
^^
so hpy ^^
my phn de msg keep ringing frm 12am until nw stil gt ^^
so touching T_T
Karine is d 1st 1...Joanna d 2nd T_T...Kor d 3rd ^^ (includ my present)
i rly like d drawing ^^
nvr tot so many fwens stil rmbr my bdae ^^
so many stranger number sommore ^^
altho i dunno who r u all but stil thx for d greetings ^^
THX MA FWENS~~~ ^^
*HUQQS ALL ^^* *MUAKSZ ALL^^*
hehe~chat wit kor until arnd 2 sumthin oni sleep xDDD
thx kor for spend time wit me ^^
lalalala~~i hd a family lunch wit my parents ^^
nt rly family lunch tho...
cz gt 4 auntie uncle i dunno is who...
thy seems lk dun evn knw its my bdea T_T
sad~ xDDDDDD
no la jkjk~~
my day stil bright~~ ^^
so bright~~~ n clear~~ ^^ full wit sakura ~~ lalalala~~ ^^
n cn see rainbow~~ cute nature~~ bird chirping~~ butterlies~~
flowers~~ AHH~~~ ORCHIDSSSSSS *love~~*
lalalala~~~ hehe ^^
HaPpY DaY fer me~~~ lalalalala~~
hehe ^^ i oways tell myself no matter wad happen ..
i oways believe tht im xing fu n hpy de ^^
i wil oways rmbr tis ^^ 4evr n evr ^^
ps ma fwens of my perkiness in schl xDDDD
^^ im rly hpy ^^
hehe~~
i think thts all 4 d moments ^^
muakx u all~~ ^^
~Lov3 U ALL~
XING FU MAX!!! ^^
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9:00 PM
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Friday, August 1, 2008
hmm... 1st day of Aug.. xDDD
wheeee~~~ *countdwn*
~~~~ lalalalalalala ~~~~
whee~~ im looking forward~~
lalalala~~ xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
*w* *w* *w* *w* *w*
im hpy~~~ cz HORNBILL's stuff gting better edi~~
consider on track? xDDDD
whee~ *CHEERS!*
lalalala~~~ lately mood quite nice =D
evn mozzie oso love meh...
bites evrywhr f3...marks EVRYWHR!!!
>-O NO FAIR!!!
LAST TIME D MOZZIES NVR BITE ME 1 LORH!!!
NOW ADAYS d mozzie not frenly jor...
T_T dun 1 kill them but thy FORCE ME TOH KILL THEM!!!
RAWR!!!! *insecticide**spary* whee~
nez week~~ busy week~~
nid visit here n thr~~
motivation speech?
nt agn =( ltr those phsyco agn ==
"IMGAINE IF UR PARENT WAD WAD WAD..WAD u DO?~ blablbalblabla~"
f3...freakish ==
hope wun fall asleep~~
lalalalala~~~
wow... stil cnt believ time rly flies~
so fast August liao~~
A-U-G-U-S-T liao~~~
i repeat A-U-G-U-S-T LIAO~~~
IM WAITING~~~~~
xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
so many things happened few months ago....
evrything settling...o shall i say omz settle?
hope so lorh...
thx to Joanna n Karine~
^_^ i said tht out LOUD in class aftr schl...
if im nt mistaken...xxx in class tht time hor?
if yes thn gud xD
im sure his gonna gv up... xDDDD
i cn see his sien-ness... xDDD
whee~~ 2mr in tuition add more things...
sure broken heart~
thn no more disturb Vivien seek for help~
n pls peeps~ dun say anythin bout him in frnt of meh...
i hv no interest...n pls dun ask meh 4gv him n be wit him agn...
if u guys helped him...u guys sure regret...
I REPEAT~ S-U-R-E R-E-G-R-E-T~~~~~
^^ so think b4 u all do anythin o say anything~
if 1 dy..any of u notice i dun wan talk to any of u...
u urself knw y la ^^
dun porposely do sumthin tht obviusly i dun lk ^^
if u knw me well... ^_^
u sud knw tht wad wil happen if u step on d TNT zone ^_^
pls dun make fun of my past...
u guys might think its funny...
but for me not ^_^ respect me pls...
if i dun wan thn means i dun wan...
dun gimme any "advise" bout tht xxx...
n pls dun simply use my name to tame him pls...
i dun lk evrytime during lesson i cn suddenly heard my name + his name...
PLEASE!!!
respect me pls ^_^
o shall i make it clearly?
I DISLK HIM MORE THAN ANY1 OF U DO!!!
THRS NO WAY I WIL BE WIT HIM AGN!!!
SO PLS SAVE YOUR SALIVA!!!
DUN TELL ME HW MUCH HE'D CHG!!! I HV NO INTEREST!!!
DUN TELL ME HW GOOD HE IS NW... I HV NO INTEREST!!!
DUN TELL ME WADEVA STUPID THINGS THT HE ASK U TO TELL ME PLS!!!
I HV N-O I-N-T-E-R-E-S-T
clear?? ^^ so... if any of u repeat TIS MAJOR mistake agn...
dun blame me for not talking to any of u ^_^
lalala~~
tis wil b d last time i talk bout tis issue in my bloggie~
^^ hpy hpy~
ciaos~~
Gud nit3s~
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11:34 PM
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