Sunday, June 22, 2008
hmmm...
i think i sudnt watch tht drama....
remind me lots of things....
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dunno frm whr i gt d courage nw...
i gonna spit evrything out in tis post....
im n gonna hold bac anymore....o ya...
ATTN!!!! NO HEART FEELINGS!!!!!!
do u knw y i became d me i am nw???
thx to u n u n u n oso u!!!!
do u evn notice u r 1 of d u????
ok...
1 by 1....
ya u....
u on d list...
yeap no doubt....
u knw y lately i seldom hang out wit u???
do u evr notice???
do u evn care???
do u evr try to find out d prob???
hmm....
i doubt it....
ya u gd in analysing person....
so wad?
a person's personality will chg....
d person nvr sty long as d person she/he used to b....
u knw wad?
evrytime ... appear....
u flies...waliao...
terus kena ditched lk im a piece of junk?
sumtime evn i hvnt finis my conversation....
appear....u FLIES!!!!
DITCH ME THR LK NOBODY!!!!
WAH!!!!! IM A SH!T IZIT?!
/// told me same thing happen in her life oso....
im rly sry /// i dunno u suffering....
i nw oso knw d feeling edi....
hahas... u told me to tolerate...
but frankly speaking....
im nt as big heart as u r....
yeap...im d sister of coca cola...
yeap...im d daughter of tortie....
yeap yeap.... im a nobody...
u told me nt to think lk tht...
but sry....easy to say hard to do....
to b honest...im proud of ur big heart....
i jz cnt...
ya u oso 1 of d lucky star....
yeap yeap....
sry i hv to repeat tis story agn....
whn u reading tis post...
i hope tht u cn read until d vry laz alpha....
pls... cn u promiz tht???
u knw since whn i became so emo???
lt me tell u....evr since d day i knw u n tht gurl....
u fooled me for 2mths....my heart was so painful....
rly painful...evrydy in schl i was lk a zombie....
no heart no smile no feelings...wait...i hv feelings....
d pain...
my heart lk been torned apart....being crushed....
being smashed...turn into ashes n flies....
omz evrydy i wrote diary....
3/4 of my diary full of ur name....
i cnt slp....u knw y???
no1 knw.... cz evrytime i close my eyes...
those conversation windows keep pop out lk thrs no 2mr....
keep flashing bac...
till nw i stil hvnt gt a clear reply on y u willing to hurt me for tht girl??
im such a foolish person...
im jz a living thing behind d comp....
u cnt see me in real life...
i fall for u....evntho we frm diff country.... diff age...
i put in my real feelings...
end up wad i gt???
m i jz an emergency rescue tube???
m i a spare tire???
i asked u many times for d reason....
but u oways skip me... i jz wanna knw d reason....
a clear reason...is it tht hard for u to answer me???
i told my BFFs tht i edi lt go...i said i ok edi...
i told them im fine...i told them im not to worry...
i told them i edi dun love u....
thy told me im jz too stupid to beliv sum1 tht i cn nvr meet in my life....
but to be honest... i rly do love u...
yeap yeap... i knw my frens for sure wil shw some weird expression whn thy read til here...
yeap yeap.... no matter wad u did... i stil love u...
evryday i think about u....
evn jz nw i went to 1Borneo shoping....
i heard tht song...
my brain wil unconciously "link" me to u....
ya... bleeding love... pretty boy...
i dun dare gv it a 2nd try....
i scare d samething wil happen....
my heart nw..in terible condition....
cnt stnd anythin for d time being....
aftr tht incident...i edi not as tough as i used to be....
i lost my confidence...
i lost my direction in my life....
i lost my feelings...
ya...
thrs oways "U" turn on d high way....
apreciate d "U" turn...cz....
on d high way..."U" turn hard to find....
jiayous evrything u do!!!!=)
sry if touched d soft point....
d "dear" i mentioned in d few previous post....
haha...oni Joanna knw "who" lai de....
not othr living things but
yeap its my childhood fav anime---Gatekeepers
aihx...pathethic eh??? xD
ah~ reliv abit liao....ok thts all....
hope i cn gt some feed back soon....
sry guys...i cnt hold bac....if not...
soon i wil b crazy....n i gonna gv up on evrythin i hv nw...
i want to slp foreva n dun 1 to wake up....
but "if your so sell fish you sleep...
did you notice how many ppl .. will be sad ?"
tis sentence woke me...
i wun gv up so easily...i think...
so... i'll try my best!?
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11:09 PM
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